“Well hello again, how have been you doing lately”, a faint yet coercive voice break within me. It was familiar but not an upbeat.
I ignored at first, but it kept disturbing me again and again. I could not help but replied, “I am doing great. Now can you please leave me alone”. And then I kept myself busy cooking something, especially for me. A best way to divert my mind.
Well it didn’t work. My subconscious mind, my selective memory is not letting me go. I had no choice but to deal with it. So I talked to it.
“You are doing great, huh? Well, I must say, you can lie to yourself quite smoothly. I am impressed. But I have a doubt. Can you clear it?” it said with a calm voice.
I replied, “You always have doubts. Why can’t you figure it out yourself? Anyways, tell me your doubt. I hope you get your answer this time”.
It continued, “If you are doing great, then why the hell are you bothering me? Why the hell are you keeping me awake? I need some rest dude.”
I got enraged and shouted, “What the hell is wrong with you? I am struggling here with myself, trying to figure out my problems, giving my situation the name of mood swings and all you care about is your sleep.”
After shouting, I got calm down and suddenly realised my food was burning. The smell irritated me more. Oh shit, I ruined it.
Anyways, as I said, my subconscious piece of mind, was having a lot interest talking to me lately, so it continued, “Dude, are you even listening to yourself. You just admitted you are struggling with something. What is it? You can talk to me. I am the first and last person who can listen to you endlessly without interrupting, who can understand you. I told you earlier also, I am your friend. Don’t make me your enemy. Let me listen to you. Let me talk to you so that we both can sleep. Obviously i’ll sleep after doing my job, talking, well listening to you”.
PS: It’s an extension of one of my previous posts. Few of you must have read it earlier. Those who want to read the previous post, here’s the link, A word with my subconscious mind..